Work Drama - Part I
By Keiti | May 25, 2007
The world of employment doesn’t belong to your grandparents anymore. Hell, it doesn’t even belong to your parents. Gone are the days where employment meant spending your entire career at the same company. Loyalty between employer and employee has gone the way of the dodo bird – on both sides. Changing careers has become as commonplace as the desire to change our minds.
And I am no exception.
Despite my parents’ respective examples, I am a job changer. I don’t want to be. I want the security of knowing I’ll have a regular paycheck and health insurance and something constructive to do. I want to work for a company that values its employees as much as its employees value the company. As trite as it sounds, I want to make a difference in this world. I want to leave a lasting mark that paves the way for something better.
I’ve thought a lot about these things over the past couple of months. Since choosing to walk away from a bad situation I’m left with far too much time to think. I’m not sure why I feel the need to constantly change what I’m doing. Perhaps I don’t have the stamina to continually do the same thing day after day; I’m guessing that my seemingly inability to accept stability has to do with boredom. That’s simplistic and not the entire story, of course, but it creates the basis on which to hang my utter impatience for bullshit which comes into play more often than I care to admit. I’ve spent time wondering why I feel the need to write all this down and post it for the world to see. Well, the writing it down part is a no-brainer – once I write it down, my exorcism will be complete and I will be able to walk away completely from this situation – it will have no more importance for me and I can concentrate on things that truly matter. The bitterness will fade and I’ll chalk everything up to being a learning situation. The posting it on my blog is really nothing more than my version of revenge against a company (and the people who run it) that jerked me (and my co-workers) around for a year and which still owes me money that I have no hope of ever seeing. I know that it’s juvenile to extract revenge in this manner, but I’m fed up with a great many things, and it’s far better than going completely postal. At least writing it down is somewhat constructive.
Am I perfect? No. Did I make my own share of mistakes over the course of the year? Absolutely. I have a hard time maintaining a sense of balance when I realize I’m getting jerked around and know that I have no other recourse. Especially when I made how I felt known and the powers that be saw fit to continue their own ridiculous behavior. I was not the only one with issues – I was just one of the more vocal ones, which definitely played into the drama. Nothing excuses my behavior, regardless of how irresponsible and idiotic the choices my bosses made – one in particular, which I will address a bit further down the line. The bottom line is that I should have been above and beyond reproach, and I most certainly wasn’t. It’s difficult to prove your point when your own decisions, in many ways, were just as irresponsible and idiotic as the other party’s.
So, in addition to doing what I can to hold this company accountable, I am holding myself accountable, as well.
At least I’m trying to.
Topics: Work |
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