Work Drama - Part IV
By Keiti | June 2, 2007
I’ve spent some time thinking about what part I played in the drama of the past year and how I contributed to the situation. I, in no way, can play the part of being completely blameless. I handled things quite poorly and fell prey to letting my ego-laced need for revenge and holding them accountable dictate my actions rather than being sensible, keeping my mouth shut, and just getting out. In short, I failed to take the high road. That is definitely my mistake and one that I need to learn from. I take from this a reminder that I am far from the person I want and need to be – I still have much to learn (patience being the least of it) and I need to realize that the smartest way to handle a situation isn’t necessarily by barreling my way through it. But I also realize that I need to rely on my instincts and first impressions. Had I followed my gut instinct straight out of the gate, I wouldn’t be writing this down, and Maddie and David wouldn’t have been so much as a blip on my radar screen. As it is, I have no more room in my life for this, which is why I chose to write it all down. Once it’s written and posted, it’s done. I’ve had my say and I can walk away from it knowing that I did what I felt I had to do at the time (the good, the bad, and the ugly) learned from it and used it to make me a better person.
And, despite the fact that the company still owes me money, I’m letting that go, as well – even though my friends and family have tried to talk me into pursuing it further. The fact of the matter is that I know they’ll get their cosmic payback in the form of karma, which was already starting to rear its head before I even gave my notice. Most recently, though, I was contacted privately by a relatively new employee of the company to see if I could help him, and some of the other new employees, navigate some issues. I don’t know specifically what those issues are as of yet, and I doubt that I’ll be able to help – especially since I can all but guarantee they’re going to be essentially the same issues some of my co-workers and I had and were unable to effectively resolve them. Only time will tell, but at the rate the company is going, it’ll be a cold day in hell before they’re able to keep loyal employees and I’ll be very surprised if they’re still in business a year or two down the road.
That’s all they payback I need.
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