I am not Myself These Days
By Keiti | July 9, 2007
The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is sit back and do nothing. I generally go after what I want, consequences be damned, which translates to the fact that I have always been a bull-in-a-china-shop kind of girl.
But this is probably the most important thing I’ve ever had to do. It’s important to me. And so I sit. And I wait for whatever the outcome may be with no idea when the it will be revealed.
I’m not patient as a general rule, but I aim to be.
I’m not in love, but I love. Deeply. With no reservations or regrets. Despite the fact that I feel like I can’t breathe. Despite the fact that I find myself avoiding people who are involved, but are in no way responsible. Despite the fact that I want to crawl into a dark place to hibernate until the pain goes away. And I know it will go away. Eventually. Just not today, and probably not tomorrow or next week or the week after that.
But someday.
Topics: Dating, Human Behavior, Life in General, Sadness, The Breakup |