Another Day…
By Keiti | July 14, 2007
Today’s been a bit of a wonky day - I woke up in a good mood, but that disintegrated as the day wore on and I ended up one step shy of raging pissed mode. I know these mood swings are the normal progression of feeling completely helpless about rectifying the one thing I’d like to. I have no choice at the moment, nor any semblance of control over the situation. Part of me would very much like to rant and rave and carry on like a crazy person, but what would that solve? Despite what I want, I need to fully determine what it is that I need, not to mention what I can live with and what I can’t.
It’s all so freaking complicated. And it doesn’t help matters when both of us are stubborn as the Florida day is long. I know I should probably just play this close to my chest - not let him know how hurt I am, or how I feel.
But I don’t play that way - I can’t be something I’m not, pretending that I don’t give a shit.
Topics: Anger, Life in General |