Down with Anxiety.
By Keiti | November 14, 2007
I had an anxiety attack at work last night. It sucked. Since I’ve had them off and on since I was 19, I’ve pretty much got contending with them down to a science. I don’t have them all that often - sometimes I’ll have one or two a year, other times I won’t have any for a couple of years - but they’re still a huge pain in the ass. For whatever reason, they happen more frequently in Florida than they do anywhere else, though I’m hopefully done with them for a while. I was talking to a co-worker about it before I left and she asked me what set it off - in my case, they’re generally not associated with anything specific - there’s nothing that happened last night that was any different than any other night at work. I do tend to hit sensory overload fairly easily, and when I’m not sleeping and eating like I should on top of that everything gets thrown out of whack.
Yet another reason I’ll be glad when this gig is over. I only need two more paychecks to hit what I wanted savings-wise; anything beyond that will be icing on the cake, so after next week is over, I will gladly walk away when it’s time for them to lay me off.
Until then, I’ll just have to suck it up and continue being sleep deprived and stressed-out until this comes to a conclusion.
And try not to feel like a complete idiot that I still have anxiety attacks at the age of 36.
Topics: Life in General |
November 14th, 2007 at 5:59 pm
Please don’t feel like an idiot - I have them regularly and I’m almost 40. Like you, it’s when I’m tired and stressed. Just a little while longer - hang in there!
November 15th, 2007 at 2:04 pm
yeah man, I get them too - sometimes seeminlgy out of nowhere, so don’t feel bad. I too find that the more tired I am, the more likely it will happen.
November 17th, 2007 at 5:14 am
Usually my reaction to them isn’t quite this frustrated - I think the hours and lack of sleep have contributed more to it than not.
Only a couple more weeks to go. As much as I needed the money, I’m not sure I want to do this ever again.
Thank you both for the words of encouragement, though. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate them.