Yeah, I’m the Queen…
By Keiti | May 31, 2008
All of my friends can attest to the fact that I am brutally honest and can come across as being mean, though I don’t ever mean to be. I’ve lost friends because of it, and I’m sure I’ve freaked a few people out on occasion - mostly because I get so fixated on something (or someone) I’m not capable of seeing beyond that particular fixation.
I know this. And because I know this I always feel the need to explain myself when I get that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach, concerned that what I said (or wrote, as the case may be) will be misconstrued.
Which (yep, you guessed it) tends to aggravate things.
The worst for me is a very bad habit of answering emails right after I wake up. My social filter is virtually non-existent on a good day, but catch me when I’m still groggy and half-asleep… forget it. I check my email before I do anything else, because I apparently haven’t learned.
The first hour of my day goes something like this:
5:30 am - fall out of bed, turn the light on, and stumble over to my computer.
5:35 am - reply to email (pick one, any one…)
5:40 am - send email
5:42 am - brush teeth and think about email
5:45 am - send second reply clarifying first email
5:50 am - turn on shower, try to decide what to wear to work, and think about previous two emails sent
5:55 am - stand stark naked with one foot stepping into the shower and realize that I forgot to mention something in my first two emails
6:00 am - rush back to the computer, scrape off third email with additional information, send it off
6:05 am - finally get in shower
6:10 am - think of something especially witty that I should have said in email, but must finish shower
6:15 am - contemplate sending fourth email
6:20 am - get out of shower when I’m finally awake up enough to realize that I’m a complete moron and decide that sending fourth email is unnecessary as overkill was taken care of by the preceding two emails
6:25 am - realize that I’m running late for work
6:30 am and beyond - know I’ll spend all day wondering if recipient of said email thinks I’m a jackass
I really wish I could be one of those cool people who nothing phases - instead, I’m the Queen… and the dominion I reign over is questionable at best.
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