What Hope Feels Like
By Keiti | June 2, 2008
This weekend has been fairly quiet - I spent the vast majority of yesterday moving two scripts over to Celtx on the mac and making sure the formatting was good. One of these days I may actually get around to doing some editing.
The rest of the time I’ve spent lying around watching chick flicks and allowing myself to have hope in something that would be ridiculously awesome. That hope, however, is tempered by the fact that, if the past is any indication, it won’t actually happen.
And that’s okay. Because just thinking about it makes me giddy with delight and the last time I felt this way was when I moved out to California and the possibilities were endless.
Hope had been shoved aside by the time I slunk back east two years later and what followed has been three years of a refusal to believe that great and wondrous and awe-inspiring things can actually happen.
This time I don’t care. I don’t care if I get hurt. I don’t care if my hopes get dashed. Because I can still feel hope and that’s enough for now.
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